Realizations….
I can see myself getting over myself, and it feels great. This past semester I devoted entirely too much emotional energy into something that I knew wasn’t going to work out. I don’t know what it is, clarity and a little common sense I guess. Well what ever it is, it has kicked in. I am seeing things clearly now. Feelings can blind you, making you twist facts and interpret actions into the way you want to see them. Now it’s just me and my brain, and my brain is telling me that I have been entirely too naive. Trying to make things work just doesn’t work. I feel like if something was meant to be, one wouldn’t have to devote so much energy to make it work out. It just would. I see that now. I am just a little mad that it took me too many months, tears, and “talks” to realize this. I know better now. I really do.
